Or I could just not sleep tonight, that works too I guess.

Ugghjtguitesjudj.

You’d think after years of this being a problem that nights like these wouldn’t piss me off so damn bad.
But they do.

I went to bed at like 11 and between then and 4 I woke up three or four times from my nightmares, yet still managed to fall back asleep. Then at four I woke up and started to have an anxiety attack but I managed to calm down juuuust in time to start hallucinating and then had the anxiety attack anyway. And now I’m too worked up and anxious and scared to even try going back to sleep because every time I close my eyes I feel hands grabbing me.
Fuck this shit man, I’m freaked the fuck out.

God forbid I get a good nights sleep.
God fucking forbid..